Prayers and more prayers
Dear Lord, Help me to be the person you created me to be. Give me the grace of Your Love to strengthen my journey through this life. Help me to be a light for others to follow when they are in darkness. I ask this in Your Sons Name Jesus Christ. Amen
I wanted to share with you a meditation that came out of the publication called the Magnificat. I found it in the August Issue for Friday the 5th. It is by Father Walter J. Ciszek, S.J. who died in 1984. He was convicted of being a "Vatican Spy" in World War II and spent twenty- three years in Soviet prisons.
It is titled Following Jesus
Our primary responsibility, the main object of all our efforts, must be the transformation of ourselves, of our hearts and our lives. Insofar as we succeed at this, we promote the spreading of God's kingdom, for by doing this, we are at the same time disposing ourselves to help others and contribute even further to the spreading of the kingdom. What this means in the concrete is that each of us must faithfully fulfill the duties of our daily life. The circumstances and people that God each day presents to us through his providence offer us the opportunity to perform action after action in proof of our dedication to the kingdom. Whether we are married and taking care of home and family, or studying in school, or working in an office or a factory or on a farm, whether we are dedicated to the priestly or religious life, matters little - in whatever we do, we must always seek first the kingdom of God. That is, all of our actions of every day must be accepted as from God and referred back to him, must be done in a way that fulfills his will, for in this way alone is the kingdom of God promoted and spread upon earth.
I think this is beautiful and it is just what this blog is about what my life is about. Some times it is hard for people to accept that another person wants to help them, listen to them and be with them when they find it hard to be with themselves. I remember when I was in my darkness and I wanted to end my life because I felt so worthless but more than that I felt that I was alone abandoned. I found it hard to get up everyday and do the things that needed to be done for myself and my family. If I did not have a set routine it would have been easy for me to just go to bed and not get up. I still managed to go to church every Sunday and teach third grade religion because I had been doing it for a long time. But it made me realize that I had to practice what I taught so I had to fight my demons and win at any cost. I kept thinking that someone would find out that I was a fake that I was living a double life that I was a terrible person because of the things that were going on in my personal life. And Sunday after Sunday I kept hearing about how much God loved me and why he died for me and I kept repeating that in my class. This is how I fought back how I held on when every fiber of my being wanted to let go.
My friend Char told me a story about how when she went for her usual walk in the park she saw a young man who looked distressed and taking a chance she approached him and was astounded that he was surprised that someone cared enough to find out if he was ok. This encounter changed him and her. After she told me this story it was announced at daily Mass that there was to be a funeral for a young man who committed suicide. I can't help thinking if Char's encounter with her young man prevented him from taking this same action. How much it means to even say hello to someone, or extend a helping hand.
Persistence In Our Circumstances
Sometimes life is so hard! At times, it seems that there is no way out. It is as if an enormous wall has closed in on us. And we feel terribly sad and despairing. But why? Is it really so awful to live in this world? Does God perhaps not know everything? Isn't he perhaps all-powerful? Doesn't he have in his hands all the laws of nature and even all the hearts of people? Could anything in this universe take place without his permission? And could he permit something that is not for our own good, for the best? The fact is that even if we were given infinite intelligence and were able to understand all the universal causes and effects, we would prefer for ourselves only what God wants for us, because, since he is infinitely good, he wants and permits only what is useful to our greatest happiness in paradise. Why then are we sometimes so depressed? Because we do not see the relationship that exists between our happiness and these circumstances which sadden us; on the contrary, because of our minds' limitation (it has the size of...A cap or a hat), we are unable to grasp everything. Then, what should we do? We should trust in God! By having faith in God, even without understanding things directly, we can give him great glory, because we acknowledge his wisdom, his goodness, and his power. Therefore, let us have faith in God, and may our faith in him be boundless. We are confident that, by trying to do only his will, no real harm can happen to us, even if we lived in more troubled times than the current ones.
Saint Maximilian Colby;; This saint was martyrdom in Auschwitz
Some more great words to ponder from someone who knew. See I found a lot of people out there who could help in my situation but I was always praying for a human being that would give me the human touch. I think we need to feel Christ present not just have some one talk about him. There is so much beauty in this world if we just let ourselves be touched by it. This is often easier said than done but it is worth the effort. We are only limited by ourselves. Once we give ourselves to God wholly and completely there are no limits the Saints teach us that.
My burden is an on going one and I don't think it will be resolved in my life time. Many people feel this same way. I was talking to a woman who told me that her sister suffers from the same condition that my son has and she hasn't talked to her or seen her in twelve years. Some family members run into her from time to time and try to make contact but she remains disassociated from family and this causes her mother a lot of pain and heartache. We are never without it.
I feel bad that the last couple of days I have let my prayer life slip. I know this is an important part of my life and one I should not neglect but some days all I can manage are good intentions. I still struggle because I am still human and that is how it will always be.
I will close with the words of Saint Margaret Mary Alacoque
Every cross is precious to a heart that loves its God and wants to be loved by him.
Peace be with you always.
I wanted to share with you a meditation that came out of the publication called the Magnificat. I found it in the August Issue for Friday the 5th. It is by Father Walter J. Ciszek, S.J. who died in 1984. He was convicted of being a "Vatican Spy" in World War II and spent twenty- three years in Soviet prisons.
It is titled Following Jesus
Our primary responsibility, the main object of all our efforts, must be the transformation of ourselves, of our hearts and our lives. Insofar as we succeed at this, we promote the spreading of God's kingdom, for by doing this, we are at the same time disposing ourselves to help others and contribute even further to the spreading of the kingdom. What this means in the concrete is that each of us must faithfully fulfill the duties of our daily life. The circumstances and people that God each day presents to us through his providence offer us the opportunity to perform action after action in proof of our dedication to the kingdom. Whether we are married and taking care of home and family, or studying in school, or working in an office or a factory or on a farm, whether we are dedicated to the priestly or religious life, matters little - in whatever we do, we must always seek first the kingdom of God. That is, all of our actions of every day must be accepted as from God and referred back to him, must be done in a way that fulfills his will, for in this way alone is the kingdom of God promoted and spread upon earth.
I think this is beautiful and it is just what this blog is about what my life is about. Some times it is hard for people to accept that another person wants to help them, listen to them and be with them when they find it hard to be with themselves. I remember when I was in my darkness and I wanted to end my life because I felt so worthless but more than that I felt that I was alone abandoned. I found it hard to get up everyday and do the things that needed to be done for myself and my family. If I did not have a set routine it would have been easy for me to just go to bed and not get up. I still managed to go to church every Sunday and teach third grade religion because I had been doing it for a long time. But it made me realize that I had to practice what I taught so I had to fight my demons and win at any cost. I kept thinking that someone would find out that I was a fake that I was living a double life that I was a terrible person because of the things that were going on in my personal life. And Sunday after Sunday I kept hearing about how much God loved me and why he died for me and I kept repeating that in my class. This is how I fought back how I held on when every fiber of my being wanted to let go.
My friend Char told me a story about how when she went for her usual walk in the park she saw a young man who looked distressed and taking a chance she approached him and was astounded that he was surprised that someone cared enough to find out if he was ok. This encounter changed him and her. After she told me this story it was announced at daily Mass that there was to be a funeral for a young man who committed suicide. I can't help thinking if Char's encounter with her young man prevented him from taking this same action. How much it means to even say hello to someone, or extend a helping hand.
Persistence In Our Circumstances
Sometimes life is so hard! At times, it seems that there is no way out. It is as if an enormous wall has closed in on us. And we feel terribly sad and despairing. But why? Is it really so awful to live in this world? Does God perhaps not know everything? Isn't he perhaps all-powerful? Doesn't he have in his hands all the laws of nature and even all the hearts of people? Could anything in this universe take place without his permission? And could he permit something that is not for our own good, for the best? The fact is that even if we were given infinite intelligence and were able to understand all the universal causes and effects, we would prefer for ourselves only what God wants for us, because, since he is infinitely good, he wants and permits only what is useful to our greatest happiness in paradise. Why then are we sometimes so depressed? Because we do not see the relationship that exists between our happiness and these circumstances which sadden us; on the contrary, because of our minds' limitation (it has the size of...A cap or a hat), we are unable to grasp everything. Then, what should we do? We should trust in God! By having faith in God, even without understanding things directly, we can give him great glory, because we acknowledge his wisdom, his goodness, and his power. Therefore, let us have faith in God, and may our faith in him be boundless. We are confident that, by trying to do only his will, no real harm can happen to us, even if we lived in more troubled times than the current ones.
Saint Maximilian Colby;; This saint was martyrdom in Auschwitz
Some more great words to ponder from someone who knew. See I found a lot of people out there who could help in my situation but I was always praying for a human being that would give me the human touch. I think we need to feel Christ present not just have some one talk about him. There is so much beauty in this world if we just let ourselves be touched by it. This is often easier said than done but it is worth the effort. We are only limited by ourselves. Once we give ourselves to God wholly and completely there are no limits the Saints teach us that.
My burden is an on going one and I don't think it will be resolved in my life time. Many people feel this same way. I was talking to a woman who told me that her sister suffers from the same condition that my son has and she hasn't talked to her or seen her in twelve years. Some family members run into her from time to time and try to make contact but she remains disassociated from family and this causes her mother a lot of pain and heartache. We are never without it.
I feel bad that the last couple of days I have let my prayer life slip. I know this is an important part of my life and one I should not neglect but some days all I can manage are good intentions. I still struggle because I am still human and that is how it will always be.
I will close with the words of Saint Margaret Mary Alacoque
Every cross is precious to a heart that loves its God and wants to be loved by him.
Peace be with you always.
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