Thoughts on Saint Particks Day
Hello Saint Monica followers if there are any. Well I know there is at least one beside myself, thank you Kris.
I usually start with a prayer but today I need a little help Let me see Psalm 103 Bless the Lord, O my soul;
and all my being, bless his holy name.
Bless the Lord, O my soul,
and forget not all his benefits.
He pardons all your iniquities,
he heals all your ills.
He redeems your life form destruction,
he crowns you with kindness and compassion.
Amen
I was just thinking about what I wanted to be when I grew up. I have done many things in my life and found some of them rewarding. I just don't know where it will lead me. I guess I am thinking in terms of success as the world understands it and not as success as God understands it. Isn't that the problem many people face? We always view our lives in the wrong terms and then become disallusioned and depressed because we don't meet the criteria. Especially when it comes to having a career and making money. I have always felt that I was a failure in this area and that I was less than I could be because I didn't fit the super mom mold. The world did not treasure being a stay at home mother as important instead it viewed it as a drain on society because I was not contributing to the economic structure of the system. So I worried about what I could do to add to the family income and how I could be a more productive member of society. I would worry day and night and I would feel more and more usless as time when on and I could not find a job that could pay me a living wage. My two years of college seem to count for nothing even though I had a degree. I wasn't much better off than someone with a GED or high school diploma. It was always frustrating to be turned down for a simple cashier job and watch it go to someone who wasn't even out of High School. Then to finally get a job only to be treated poorly and paid next to nothing. What was I doing wrong? Why was I hearing stories of people who found good jobs with hardly no skills and going places with the money they earned when I could have done those jobs as well as they and yet I never got one and even they could not figure out why. There was one time when a job did come up that I was well suited for and it was something I liked doing but my family obligations did not permit me to take it. The oppertunity never came up again. Sometimes I kick myself because I didn't try to work things out and go for it anyway, after all what was the harm in trying.
I am adding to this at a much latter date, it is June 26th and I am just getting back to the thoughts I started in March. A lot has happened in the time between now and then. One of my good friends and God sister Kris has been trying to help me find a job that I would be suited for. Bless her heart. And I do have my non-paying work which I find rewarding which is my storytelling and one of my great loves. My dream job would be where I could incorporate my storytelling into it, that would be wonderful. But in the mean time I will with the help of my friends still try and fit in and help to pay so of the bills that keep pileing up. In the mean time summer is here to be enjoyed so I am going to do my best to do that as well.
Oh before I go I have to tell you that my daughter who just graduated from high school got a job at Sears and we are very happy for her but they can not let her start until she is 18 which will be the first week in July. See noone believed me when I told them she was looking and could not get hired because she was not 18. People do not realize that the times have changed and unless you know someone or get a job through a school program or fall into some other special catagory you just have to wait. I was talking to another mother of a teenage boy who was going through the same thing so I felt vindicated. Can you believe that people thought I was making it up to cover up the fact that my daughter was lazy. Sometimes people without information can be so cruel, can't they. Now she can work on getting a car and going to Red Rocks Community College. Yea!
Now I can close with a prayer of thanksgiving.
Dear Lord, thank you for your many blessings that you have bestowed on my family. May we be ever mindful of the fact that they are blessings and that they come from you and not from anything that we have done. Thank you Lord for loving us so much.
Amen
I usually start with a prayer but today I need a little help Let me see Psalm 103 Bless the Lord, O my soul;
and all my being, bless his holy name.
Bless the Lord, O my soul,
and forget not all his benefits.
He pardons all your iniquities,
he heals all your ills.
He redeems your life form destruction,
he crowns you with kindness and compassion.
Amen
I was just thinking about what I wanted to be when I grew up. I have done many things in my life and found some of them rewarding. I just don't know where it will lead me. I guess I am thinking in terms of success as the world understands it and not as success as God understands it. Isn't that the problem many people face? We always view our lives in the wrong terms and then become disallusioned and depressed because we don't meet the criteria. Especially when it comes to having a career and making money. I have always felt that I was a failure in this area and that I was less than I could be because I didn't fit the super mom mold. The world did not treasure being a stay at home mother as important instead it viewed it as a drain on society because I was not contributing to the economic structure of the system. So I worried about what I could do to add to the family income and how I could be a more productive member of society. I would worry day and night and I would feel more and more usless as time when on and I could not find a job that could pay me a living wage. My two years of college seem to count for nothing even though I had a degree. I wasn't much better off than someone with a GED or high school diploma. It was always frustrating to be turned down for a simple cashier job and watch it go to someone who wasn't even out of High School. Then to finally get a job only to be treated poorly and paid next to nothing. What was I doing wrong? Why was I hearing stories of people who found good jobs with hardly no skills and going places with the money they earned when I could have done those jobs as well as they and yet I never got one and even they could not figure out why. There was one time when a job did come up that I was well suited for and it was something I liked doing but my family obligations did not permit me to take it. The oppertunity never came up again. Sometimes I kick myself because I didn't try to work things out and go for it anyway, after all what was the harm in trying.
I am adding to this at a much latter date, it is June 26th and I am just getting back to the thoughts I started in March. A lot has happened in the time between now and then. One of my good friends and God sister Kris has been trying to help me find a job that I would be suited for. Bless her heart. And I do have my non-paying work which I find rewarding which is my storytelling and one of my great loves. My dream job would be where I could incorporate my storytelling into it, that would be wonderful. But in the mean time I will with the help of my friends still try and fit in and help to pay so of the bills that keep pileing up. In the mean time summer is here to be enjoyed so I am going to do my best to do that as well.
Oh before I go I have to tell you that my daughter who just graduated from high school got a job at Sears and we are very happy for her but they can not let her start until she is 18 which will be the first week in July. See noone believed me when I told them she was looking and could not get hired because she was not 18. People do not realize that the times have changed and unless you know someone or get a job through a school program or fall into some other special catagory you just have to wait. I was talking to another mother of a teenage boy who was going through the same thing so I felt vindicated. Can you believe that people thought I was making it up to cover up the fact that my daughter was lazy. Sometimes people without information can be so cruel, can't they. Now she can work on getting a car and going to Red Rocks Community College. Yea!
Now I can close with a prayer of thanksgiving.
Dear Lord, thank you for your many blessings that you have bestowed on my family. May we be ever mindful of the fact that they are blessings and that they come from you and not from anything that we have done. Thank you Lord for loving us so much.
Amen
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